We live in a house with three very small bathrooms.  Shortly after we moved in I took all my girly stuff and stuffed and shoved it into the biggest of the very small bathrooms.  There is a problem with this arrangement.  The lights in the bathroom I’ve chosen burn out quickly.  Five light bulbs line the mirror above the sink, but I am generally left with about three working lights.

Go back in time to the ’80’s.  I was a teenager and Brooke Shields image stared back at me from the covers of the latest fashion magazines.  I looked at her eyebrows; I looked at my eyebrows.  And in the words of my six-year-old, “easy peasy.”  Even then I needed tweezers or I would have had a uni-brow.  Fast forward back to the present;  without proper lighting in my bathroom I am in danger of revisiting my Brooke Shields eyebrows days.   In the poor lighting of my bathroom, I am satisfied with what I see.  But, when I step into my husbands bathroom, which has a window, I gasp in horror at my reflection.  I’m sure I break speed records in my race to get my tweezers and pluck the bushy eyebrows down to an acceptable size in the light provided by the window.

At three-years old, my oldest daughter did not like her blonde eyebrows.  She found a black permanent marker, stood in front of the mirror in my bedroom, and drew on a set of thick, black, and somewhat crooked set of brows.  I walked into my bedroom and found her admiring her new look in the mirror.  Appalled and amused at the same time I asked her why she had done it.  She replied, “Because I couldn’t see them.”

My daughter tried to fix her lack of eyebrows herself, but it didn’t turn out so well.  Later, as a teenager, a make-up sales associate helped her pick out an eyebrow pencil to enhance her brows.  Too many times in life I try to fix my lack of spirituality myself.  I do more.  It makes me look good, at least in my opinion.  But, if I could only see how my self-righteousness looks to God.  It probably looks like my daughter’s permanent black marker eyebrows did to me!

I can just picture God walking into the bedroom and seeing me with my black, permanent marker eyebrows.  The corners of His mouth must twitch just a little as He shakes His head and pulls out the washcloth and soap.   Just like I need the added light of the window to see my stray eyebrows, I need the light of the Holy Spirit shining into the darkness of my heart to reveal my mess.  It is only when I see my sinfulness that I am willing to get cleaned up.  But, I can’t do it on my own.  Just like I need the light from the window to see my overgrown eyebrows,  I need God to send the light of His Holy Spirit to come in and change me, because I am incapable of changing the desires of my heart on my own.

My human nature demands that I fix myself.  I’m usually pretty sure if I try a little harder I can do it.  That works for some things, like pounding on the lid of a jar to loosen it up enough for me to twist off.  But, all the cleaning I do in my heart just stirs up the dust and covers things up.  Only God’s love has the power to remove my sin.  Only God’s love can see through my shield of self-righteousness.  Only God’s love has the ability to still love me.  Only my acceptance of God’s love into my heart will create a new heart within me.

 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from your presence; and take not your holy spirit from me…  Psalm 51:10-11

And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart.  Ezekiel 36:26 NLT

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