So it all started last night. I should have made juice for this morning so I wouldn’t be rushed trying to get out of the house this morning. But, did I? No. I was too tired, too lazy, and ended up not preparing like I should have. This morning as I rushed around preparing to leave the house, I felt like one of the five unprepared virgins who didn’t go out to buy oil while waiting for the bridegroom.
Running late was my own fault. I had gotten up with plenty of time to get ready, but I didn’t want to go anywhere. I had a sense of entitlement, I had worked hard all week and my introverted self just wanted to stay home on the weekend. I wondered if I have a sense of entitlement when it comes to God’s blessings? Do I think I deserve all good things because, after all, I’m not so bad. While it is true that I may not be such a bad person, on the other hand, am I such a good person that I deserve to receive the greatest gift of all? The death of God’s son Jesus so I could live?
After preparing my juice and sucking it down in record time, I jumped in the shower ahead of Brett who was ironing his shirt. After drinking the cold juice, I just wanted to stand in the hot water for hours, or at least ten minutes. But, I didn’t have time to do that and even if I did, I knew Brett would appreciate a hot shower also. So I braced for reality and turned off the hot water. I thought about how when I stand in the hot cleansing water of God, I just want to get out as quickly as possible!
I find it pretty easy to be unprepared. I can procrastinate with the best of them. But, if I put off the good that I should do, I will soon be standing in the hot cleansing water of God’s love for me. I will never be “good enough” to deserve God’s gifts for me, but God sent Jesus to die for me so His blood could cover my sins and I may live in the Presence of God all the days of my life.